2/24/09
Living with you is my own technicolor parade
Each day full of ticker-tape and big brass bands
The feel of returning home - again and again.
- Franny Zeal
3/10/09
Can you sit here with me and wait for the fireworks?
They'll come, all at once, spiraling from nothing.
I promise it will be spectacular.
3/13/09
You're lying on the living-room floor with headphones on.
I hear a faint and muffled heartbeat.
We're alive - so fast and strong.
3/24/09
Please don't think it's okay for you to just sit there
While I'm looking at the world with my hair on fire
Keeping still while my heart is breaking
4/7/09
To navigate the space between us is impossible.
There are spaces; they do exist.
I've felt them but I know I couldn't find my way through them.
4/21/09
every cell is coming to a rolling boil
creating wavy lines of dizziness
until nothing makes any sense
5/19/09
your eyes are birthday candles
living in that slender moment
just before someone leans close, making a wish
6/2/09
Before I met you, I could sleep soundly for hours on end
Now, I barely sleep at all and often wear dark circles, red eyes
This way is so much better
6/16/09
the new goal: take responsibility - that would be - for myself
who did what to whom matters little
anymore
6/30/09
the most comforting idea I've come across
is that I'm not in control
of anything, not one little thing
7/3/09
I never knew it was possible to love you
so much that it hurts every cell, every part of me
but that's the way it's supposed to be, isn't it?
7/14/09
to really live within my skin
finally feeling each stitch
or at least I have today
7/28/09
sometimes life catches me unaware
blink and you'll miss it - we're here for such a short while
but then, what was I really expecting?
8/11/09
It happens when I least expect it
the visions take the stage slightly off to one side
and then quickly turning my head, I miss them completely
8/27/09
Sometimes I stand in my raincoat
Holding up the umbrella, I wait
For what, I'm never sure
8/28/09
I stand very still, every muscle tensed
tilting my head, listening
to the silence
9/22/09
when I think about you
it's hard to remember
that we both came from somewhere else
10/20/09
what's the problem with letting go?
it all keeps sticking to my hands and feet
like junk I want to dump, but can't
11/17/09
I'm right behind you, always
just look over your left shoulder
and don't forget to wink
12/1/09
I am beginning to see a foggy outline
that no one can throw away the key
but me
1/19/10
the month I was born
was also the month You were created
summer is a season still so curious to me
2/16/10
The rain looks like tears coming down
but it is only water --
I can and I can't take credit for this.
3/2/10
airplane ears, silk wings, muddy hooves
a being moved inside, felt
those warm bodies are my reminders
3/16/10
the ringing telephone, the whistling kettle
i try to choose which one to answer ... can't
you stroke my hair - my lover, my friend
3/30/10
neither by force, nor plea
you see me and break me
force me to lighten my load - over and over
4/13/10
here you come
through the dark alleys of my mind
through the jumbled, jangled doorways of my heart
6/22/10
i try to reach for the space
not the edges of where it was or even where it is going
but the feeling of where it is - now
11/2/10
Before, I never knew what to do with you.
Now, there's not enough of you--
time, you are a slippery lover.